l.o.v.e

l.o.v.e

damn!dis morning aku bangun,n aku dpt berita yg palin sucks..my bestfriend clash 4 da second tyme wid a guy yg paling x mengelenyar(aku x taw mksd dye,cuba tnye shaa) dlm dunia neh...o.m.g dye sgt teruk yea!dye slalu buat dis gurl rasa terrible bout herself n dis guy slalu buat dis gurl mcm x wujud dlm idop dye!fuck off la weh..tyme ko susa,ko cari dye,tyme ko sng ko bla mcm 2 je..shit dowh!n aku x penah dgr kwn aku nangs sepanjang friendship aku ngan dye,but dis morning she's crying like hell...n juz bcoz of dat guy..kalu la kau ada kat penang,da lama aku sepak mamat 2 smp mandul..wtf la!guy sllau x reti nk appreciate perempuan dgn cara yg spatutnya..come on la..gurl is not ur toy ok?shit..aku lnsg x sdp hati ryte now..y?aku x suke tgk kwn2 aku kene mcm neh...crying sbb lelaki..yeah its normal but its not good ok?crying!arhhhhh..n a guy never felt sory 4 wat they hv done..n 2 lagi buat aku bengang...come on!aku x kesa kalu bende neh jd kat org laen instead of my friends..my good friends!not wid her ok..aku x suke n jgn harap u will get the chances anymore..aku x akan benarkan..wahhh!hahahhaha...y huh?dulu pon mcm neh gak..kwn baek aku jugak..kene bodo ngan tapir,tenuk yg dtg drpd madagascar kottt!bajet mcm hot,,wtf la!then.mcm2 jd..friendship kiteorg da mcm ape dah sbb dye..lucky we're bestttfrienddd!never let one of us down..yeah kiteorg marah!tpp kiteorg akan tolong jugak no matter wat..hurmmm...slalu mcm 2..kalu sakit hati pon,simpan dlm2 je la..kite kwn kan?ntahlah..myb sume org rase aku x normal sbb x de bf or bencikan lelaki sgt,ttp aku da janji ngan diri aku,no more guys..stop!they hurt me a lot until now..aku da bosan laaa..kalu stakat bercinta unutk break up,bwat ape..bwat aku sakit hati je..n aku bukan jenis perempuan yg senang 2 fall in luv..if aku da syg,aku akan syg ko sampai mati oke?2 yg susa psl aku neh..but itulah kehidupan..l.o.v.e!

result again

hahahahhaha..ngeek!ok result 4 mid term sgtttttt teruk yea!n ini bkn petanda yg baek utk spm aku..wat shud i do?study?ok i hv started 2 study!baru start..hahhahaha..n i think i hv 2 consentrate more on my studies ryte now..
subjek yg perlu attention are:

• CHEMISTRY SENGAL
• PHYSICS HENSEM
• ENGLISHH ISHHHHHHHH
• BIOLOGY BIOL
• addd mathhh hahahahah
• mathematics ssssssszzzzzzz

ADOII.sape nk tolong aku neh?cikgu?hurmm hampeh!x de peningkatan pon..x leh blame ckg coz all of dis salah aku..bukan dyeorg..tp kan,nape aku je yg teruk?org laen ok je?musykil gak aku kdg2..tp lame2 aku sedar la,yg aku ne x pandai mc dyeorg..x bace buku sgt pon bole perform dlm spm..kalu aku x bace buku?hurmmm mmg aku yg kene perform telinga aku utk parents aku..kene dengar berleter dyeorg..hahahaha..tinggi harapan dyeorg kat aku..tp aku?ntahlah x tingii2 pon..mngkn ne cubaan utk aku supaya lebih meningkat lg!chayok2!hahahaah..2syen banyak bantu aku skrang..menyesal aku berenti dulu..buang masa je kat umah..skrng aku try nk pick up balik..aku taw aku boleh buat n perform dlm spm,tp aku kene suffered sket la utk spm neh..x pe la utk mama!huhuh..aku snggp buat ape je utk mama..

to-do-list-

• buat revision mnyk2
• buat exercise mnyk2
• buat hw bg siap
• jgn maen manyak
• jgn lost dlm class
• focus
• attend 2syen everyday
• jgn lupe solat
• jgn lwn ckp abah
• be nice wid mama n abah
• dont talk nonsense abou other people especially ckgu!

INGATTTTTTTTT!!!!

AKU TAW AKU BOLE DPT 9A'S DLM SPM!GO NABILA!

result

dentist day

hurmmmm last nyte,tdo umah kkk n hv fun la gak!tgk dvd..hahahahah...tgk cte confession oof shopaholic..old muvie ryte?tp aku x penah tgk lg..hahahah..ketinggalan siot!sejak menjak neh,aku x leh tdo mlm la..try utk tdo tp x bole..smlm aku masuk bilik pkol 1,aku tdo pkol 3..2 jam aku resah..tdo baring,sujud,tonggek,sume x bole nk bwat mata aku pejam..adoi!seksa sih kalu x leh tdo mlm..and kak ada gerak pkol 6.55 am pg td..bengang tol,pg2 lg da nk bisng2...abng agil n sis x g keje..kakak demam!abg agil?hurmmmm..hahahahha...beli breakfast kat mcd td,but tahan perut x nk mkn!nnt lekat sisa mknn kat gg..malu!hahahaha...da la gigi berceramuk,karat!hahahaha..adoi..aku suke kutuk diri sendiri..tgu doc nk pnggl 2 punye la lame..aku rase mcm nk jerit je..then bile num 1003 kluar kat mende alah 2,aku pon msuk la dlm..then aku tekejut gle bile ade lebih kurang 10 doc kat dlm 2..aku mcm apehal ramai2 neh?aku nk bwat gg je..bukan nk kawad kaki!adoiii..then,doc gadoh plak..
aku benci bile org tanye mcm neh
doc:umo brape?
aku:17
doc:13?
aku:17!
doc:ohhhh 13
aku:1777777!!!!!hahahahaha
doc:harhhhhhhhh?keciknye?hahahah
aku rase mcm nk tampa doc 2 manyak kali,sepak smp mampus..tp bile pikir2 balik,aku rase x pe la..dye nk bwat gg aku..hahahahha
then having breakfast kat dlm kreta..hurh mcm nk muntah..hahahah..
then smp umah kkk balik..kak ada zzzz,aku tgk dvd..tgk slamat pagi cinta!menarik!aku nanges!hahahahah..luv is everything..aku da mula sukakan lakonan fazura!dye bgus la gak..hahhaha...then aku bosan!wehhhhhh aku nk balik umah..hahahhahaha..aku tetido smp kol 6.30pm kat hall,then aku nmpk sume da siap..oh nk balik!aku amik bag,siap2 then chow from dat house..td aku on9 ms,wanie remind me of add math..then trus la bwat..copy n paste je la wehh!hahahahah...lame la gak..tp siap!!!!done!hahaha..aku sibuk buat add math,abg sibok memasak kat dapur..aku mls nk tego,tp nk gelak pon ade..x penahnye msk!hahahah..tp bgus la..kenyang gak aku..pemalas!hahahahah....ok lah boo,nk g 2syen..bye!class bi fun..x sbr nk attend..hahahahha..aslmkm!

abah

abah

im so happy 2 be ur daughter abah..im proud of u..abah da manyak sacrifise 4 ur children...but lately,i think abah has changed..i dun know y,myb it is juz me or wattt..
mase dulu,abah will always smile on me,borak2,bwk jalan2 naek moto..give support 2 me,be the one 4 me..

now:
abah da brubah..abah asyik marah aku jee..i dun know wat is getting wrong wid our relationshipp..whether aku da buat salah atau abah mmmgg da x suka aku...i dun know..abah asyik cari kesalahan aku..everytime jumpe,there must be sumthing wrong..i hv grown up abah!i can take care of maself..y everyone tgk aku mcm sorg budak kecik yg x taw pape?yeah i mayb small in size,but hey,aku ade spirit yg lg besar than sumone else...yeah its quite funny,tppp itulah!abh x pecaya kat aku lnsg..langsg x!aku dibesarkan dgn konkongan..toooooo mengongkong!sumtime aku rase mcm wat went wrong wid my life?ape beza aku ngan kak ada,abang,n kkk?x de beza!dyeorg lg teruk drpd aku..n they are still free..n abah never mad wid kak ada eventho she has done sumthing bad!i dun know...

aku rase mcm nk lari pon ade kdg2 but i hv 2 bersabar bcoz abah,ayah aku..dye yg besarkan aku..whether aku suke ke x,he is my abah!aku x penah tinggikan suara kat abah,aku x penah bantha ckp abah(myb sumtimies je la) hahahha,aku try x nak sakitkan ati abah tppp aku mcm mane?aku x de life..aku xde zaman remaja yg sumeorg ade...yeah aku terlalu jujur..but itupun sbb aku respek abah dan mama!tpp knape dyeorg x cayekan aku?y?susa sgt ke nk lepas aku g alam ngan kwn2?aku bukan g hisap dadah or doing sumthing bad but i juz want 2 hv fun wid them...bukan slalu..tpp itupun susa...kalu aku tnye,mcm2 alasan dyeorg bagi...then at last the answer is NO!well n u know wat,aku rase mcm nk bunuh diri or lari dari umah je mase 2..situation like dat was so bangang 4 me..n abah penah tinggikan suara kat aku once..aku rase mc nk mati je time 2..knape org laen buat salah,aku yg kene?wats wrong?arhhhhhhhhhhhhhh....even there re so many things dat i need 2 tell him,but aku simpan je...aku x penah bantah ape yg dyeorg ckp,aku x penah skali pon tnggikan suara,tpppp itulah..kehidupan yg dikonkong yg aku dpt..mmglah abah n mama slalu bwk jln2,but laen bile kite dgn kwn2..situasi yg berbeza ok!yeah,n they will say aku lebihkan kwn2 drpd fmly,but cum on!bape kali la sgt aku dpt hang out wid them slain drpd school?adoi!

abah!i luv u so much from now sampai bile2..i miss da tyme kite tgk bola same2 n hv da tyme same2..abh akan kejutkan i 2 watching man utd..n u know wat,i feell really happy when u gerak me wid 'nadia bangun tgk bola...da nk stat da neh'...i remembered when we became the commentator football along the man utd games..hahahahha..its so fun abah...having lunch wid u sgt menarik...i miss 2 see u smile at me abah!i miss 2 hear u say u luv me abah..i miss 2 hear u proud of me abah..i miss 2 hear u would be my abah 4ever..abah i juz need ur support..help me abah..not judging me!yeah,u have de hak,but abah menjatuhkan aku!believe me!abh i luv u but plzz dont judging me abah!myb i hv changed but abah i wouldnt let u down abah!never!

06.06.2009

hurmmm..td terpaksa bangun awal 2 attend xtra clasess..arhhh..have 2..attend class bm n chm3..agak bosan but menarik la coz bole jumpe kwn2 hyve n learned sumthing about paper 3 chm3 yg aku x penah taw kene bwat..hahahahaha...
mende yg terjadi hari ini ialah:
aku attend 2syen ceria maju n i dont know why?
im worried bout my mid term result..seriously!
saye rindu penang sgt2
saye rindukan freedom
im miss 2 being child
saye rindukan kehidupan lame
saye x de perasaan!
saye kene nagging dgn abah,n aku x suke kene berleter dgn abah..i dont know y,tp itulah reality..
aku bosan dok umah!
aku x suke hidup bosan dan terkonkong!
akuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu nakkkkkkkk bebassss!